Chapter 2 - BEFORE THAT DAY

Looking back, I can see a hundred small things that should have added up sooner.
At the time, they didn’t.
Or maybe they did, and I chose not to trust what I was seeing because the alternative would have required action, and action against somebody else’s family is the sort of thing most decent people delay one day too long.
I’m forty-one. I’ve lived on Hawthorne Lane for eleven years. I repair commercial fixtures for a school district and do side jobs on weekends when people need doors rehung, cabinets reset, screen frames fixed—quiet work, practical work, the kind that teaches you how to notice what’s slightly off in a structure long before it collapses.
I knew the Mercers before everything went wrong.
Their mother, Anna, used to sit on their front steps in the summer with a glass of iced tea while Drew rode circles on a plastic tricycle and Lily toddled after bubbles. Ryan worked logistics for a food distributor—long hours, early mornings, but he used to look like a man who knew exactly where he was going home to. Anna laughed easily. The kids were loud in the healthy way. The whole house had that loose, warm rhythm some families build without trying too hard.
Then Anna got sick.
Pancreatic cancer.
Fast.
Cruel.
One spring she was planting tomatoes in the side garden; by October she needed help getting up the front steps. She died the following January, and after that the Mercers’ house turned into one of those homes you can feel grieving from the sidewalk.
Ryan stopped mowing regularly.
The porch toys disappeared.
Drew got quieter.
Lily started crying if anyone unfamiliar tried to pick her up.
For a while, everybody gave them grace. You’re supposed to. Grief rearranges people.
Then Reena arrived.
At first she looked like stability.
Thirty-four, dark hair, neat smile, always wearing those soft neutral sweaters that made her seem gentler than she was. She introduced herself as a friend from Ryan’s high school years who had “reconnected at the exact moment life needed some kindness.” Most people believed her because widowers and casseroles have always inspired a certain kind of neighborhood optimism.
But there were things.
Little things.
Reena never let the children interrupt adult conversations. At first that sounded like manners. Later it began to sound like control.
Drew stopped waving from the yard.
Lily stopped speaking to anyone outside the family.
Once, in April, I was tightening the chain on my bike when Drew stood at the edge of my grass and stared at the screwdriver set on my porch table for so long I finally asked if he needed something.
He pointed at a flathead driver and said, “Can that open any door?”
I laughed because kids ask odd questions.
“Some screws,” I said. “Not magic doors.”
He nodded as if I’d told him something disappointing but useful.
A week later, I saw Reena yank him by the upper arm so sharply on the Mercer porch that his whole body rocked sideways.
She looked up, saw me watching, and smiled.
“Rough day,” she called.
I did what cowards do when they don’t want to challenge another adult directly.
I nodded and went back inside.
Then there were the grocery bags.
Lily once came to my fence with a packet of dry crackers in both hands and ate them like she was afraid somebody would take them back. Drew started asking my mail carrier whether apples were expensive. The neighborhood kids stopped knocking at the Mercer house because Reena would answer the door and say, “They’re having quiet time,” no matter what hour it was.
Still, every concern I had found its excuse.
Their mother just died.
Ryan is overwhelmed.
Reena’s trying her best.
Some kids are just shy.
The day before everything broke open, I saw Drew dragging a plastic laundry basket through the Mercer side yard. It held two stuffed animals, a blanket, and a flashlight.
I almost asked what he was doing.
I almost didn’t.
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That’s the worst kind of memory.
The almost.