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Chapter 2 - The Ride in the Dark

I did not plan it. If I had planned it, I might have chosen something less desperate and less foolish. But fear rarely waits for elegant decisions. It demands movement.

Michael had gone back inside the house for something he had forgotten, and in those few seconds I slipped through the side entrance of the garage, lifted the trunk, and folded myself into the cramped space beside a toolbox and two rolled-up blueprints. The carpet scratched my palms. The air smelled like rubber, old paper, and motor oil.

Then the lid slammed shut.

Darkness pressed against my face so completely that I had to cover my mouth to keep from gasping. A few seconds later, the driver’s door opened. Then I heard Michael speak in a low voice.

“Emma, are you ready?”

She answered so softly I almost missed it. “Yes, Dad.”

Not playful. Not casual. Afraid.

The car backed out. Each turn slammed my shoulder against the metal wall. I listened to every word from the front seat as if my life depended on it.

“Are you okay?” Michael asked. “Do you feel all right?”

“I’m just nervous,” Emma said.

“I know. But you’ll see him again today.”

Him.

My stomach turned over.

Then came the sentence that tore through every suspicion I had been building. “Dad,” Emma whispered, “you’re really not going to tell Mom, right? You promised.”

Michael was silent long enough to frighten me more than any answer could have.

Finally he said, “I know. But we can’t hide this forever.”

My throat tightened. Him. A promise. A hospital. Emma missing school. All the pieces in my head arranged themselves into uglier and uglier shapes, and every one of them felt possible.

After what felt like an hour, the car slowed. Gravel cracked beneath the tires. The engine shut off. Doors opened. Emma climbed out quickly. Michael followed more slowly. Then their footsteps moved away.

I waited until I could hear nothing.

My hands shook as I felt along the trunk wall until my fingers found the emergency release. I pulled it. The lid lifted a few inches, enough to let in a line of blinding daylight. I pushed it up slowly and looked out.

Rows of cars. Glass doors. A towering building of white concrete and windows. An American flag stirring in the wind.

Saint Mary’s Children’s Pavilion.

And twenty yards ahead of me, Michael stood with one hand on Emma’s shoulder, guiding her toward a set of double doors marked with a bright painted mural of clouds and stars.

This was not an affair hotel. Not a private apartment. Not another woman’s house.

This was worse.

This was a children’s hospital.

I climbed out of the trunk and stayed low behind the next parked SUV, watching them cross the lot. Emma clutched her backpack so tightly that her knuckles looked white. Michael bent toward her and said something I could not hear. She nodded without looking at him.

When the sliding doors opened, a nurse in purple scrubs stepped out to greet them. She smiled at Emma with the kind of practiced gentleness reserved for children who are already frightened.

I started moving before I consciously decided to. My legs felt numb and unstable, but I followed them across the parking lot and into the lobby. The air inside smelled like disinfectant, coffee, and the faint sugary scent of the gift shop.

At the reception desk, Michael signed something. The nurse put a visitor sticker on Emma’s hoodie and led them toward the elevator bank. I stayed half-hidden behind a brochure stand until I saw the elevator doors closing.

Just before they shut, I caught sight of the sign above them.

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Pediatric Hematology and Transplant Unit.

My knees nearly gave way.

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