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Chapter 4 - June Arrives

I named her June because she was born during the first storm after the fire.

Rain tapped against the hospital windows that morning, soft and steady, washing ash from the city streets. She came into the world smaller than expected, furious at being handled, and loud enough to make the nurse laugh.

“There she is,” the nurse said. “Strong lungs.”

I held her against my chest and wept into her dark little hair.

For months, I had imagined Brett seeing her for the first time. I had imagined his face softening, his hand trembling over her blanket, the terrible night somehow becoming something we survived instead of something he chose.

But when June opened her tiny mouth and made a sound like complaint, I understood the truth.

She did not need the version of Brett I had invented to survive him.

She needed me awake.

So I stayed awake.

Three weeks after June was born, I saw Brett on the local news.

I was sitting in a small apartment arranged through a survivor assistance program, June asleep in a bassinet beside the couch. The television was on low because silence still made my body listen for sirens.

Then Brett’s face appeared.

He stood in a navy suit beside a banner for the Pine Ridge Wildfire Relief Fund. White tablecloths. Gold lights. Photographs of burned homes near the entrance. A ballroom full of donors listening as if Brett were a wounded hero instead of a man who had left his wife in smoke.

The reporter called him a survivor.

A community leader.

A man who had “carried private loss with public grace.”

Tessa stood behind him in a black dress.

Eleanor sat in the front row, dabbing her eyes with a tissue.

Brett looked into the camera and said, “That night taught me what it means to protect the people you love.”

I turned off the television.

June stirred.

I walked to her bassinet and placed one hand gently on her blanket.

Then I called Claire Whitman.

“You told me when I was ready, you could help get the recording.”

Claire was quiet for one second.

“The fundraiser is next week,” I said.

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“I know.”

“I’m ready.”

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